This is the problem with always-on, always-connected technology, mobile apps and the like.
It's 11:45 pm. I should be asleep. Instead I'm writing.
It's a quiet night. Cool. It should be easy to fall asleep. But it's anything but quiet inside right now.
I'm yelling at others with all of the intensity in my minds eye. I'm shouting at myself even louder in my head. My imagination and my memories and my angers are all boiling up right now for no good apparent reason. I can't seem to stop myself from having a different mental shouting match every time my eyes close. There's nothing that's happened, nothing that's wrong, nothing that triggered any of this. So what the hell? Why is it a revolving door of bullshit imaginary argument?
I should be asleep.
I'm hopeful that even typing out these stupid and unnecessarily melodramatic words will somehow help to calm the chaos that's storming inside my head tonight. That somehow it will transfer the useless exaggerations from the confines of my mind to the phone and then the web and finally leave me to get some rest. That could work, right?
It's actually quiet. It's all in my head.
Deep breaths. I can calm this.
